I have now reached the happy age of 23. No, happy is not quite the right word. At this particular moment I am certainly not happy..

He has so often told me he is madly in love with me, but what does that mean when I haven't had a good word from him in three months?.

God, I am afraid he won't give me his answer today. If only somebody would help me - it is all so terribly depressing..

There is only one thing I want. I would like to be seriously ill, and to hear nothing more about him for at least a week. Why doesn't something happe….

If I had a dog I would not feel so lonely, but I suppose that is asking for too much..

I sat with him for three hours and we did not exchange a single word. At the end he handed me, as he had done before, an envelope with money in it. I….

I am so infinitely happy that he loves me so much, and I pray that it will always be like this. It won't be my fault if he ever stops loving me..

Today I bought two lottery tickets, because I had a feeling that it would be now or never - they were both blanks. So I am not going to be rich after….

I want to be a pretty corpse..

I am racking my brains to find out why he left without saying goodby to me..

When he says he loves me, it only means he loves me at that particular instant. Like his promises, which he never keeps. Why does he torment me like ….

Perhaps he wanted to be alone with Dr. G., who was here, but he should have let me know. At Hoffmann's I felt I was sitting on hot coals, expecting h….