I want to be more than just some guy who played in a World Cup final..

The conversation topic in my head is not what role I should play; it is whether I am going to play at all..

What I am proud of is I have searched for the best of me and I have been a team man without fail..

Playing the game, representing the team, giving my all and never letting go has meant everything to me..

My own position is so far on the obsessive side of preparation and professionalism that I fear my point of view is not going to be shared by anyone..

I only get the points because I have team-mates who do the work and put me in the position to get them..

I play with a fear of letting my team down. That's what motivates me..

When you're obsessive, like me, searching for something unattainable can become unhealthy ... it's like falling through the air and grabbing at the c….

I do, have done and always will believe that I am very capable of performing and thriving at any level of the sport..

I refuse to go into a fast-food outlet - to use the toilet even - in case anyone got the wrong idea and thought I was sneaking in a quick burger..

I like to think I play rugby as it should be played - there are no yellow or red cards in my collection - but I cannot say I'm an angel..

I'm pretty aware that the pursuit of perfection is, inherently, a flawed concept..

To say I have played through four World Cups, two Lions tours, 91 international games and a ridiculous number of injuries and other setbacks gives me….

The problem with me is I always think I should've done better. I felt that after the World Cup final and through my whole career..

I know that Martin Johnson [the England coach] was in the stands, but I didn't feel it was up to me to impress them. He and his assistant [Brian Smit….

Due to a life of training and playing, I seem to spend half my time in the shower..

Failing at something is one thing, but Buddhism tells us that it is up to us how we interpret that failure [Buddhism] a philosophy and way of life th….

I would like to wish the England squad every success. I would also very much like to extend those wishes to Martin Johnson, Brian Smith, Mike Ford, J….

Those Aussie rugby fans are a bunch of sore losers. I hate 'em all..

Right through to the end of the last World Cup game, I still couldnt bear the thought of not being perfect or letting people down..

For me now, I will continue to focus ever harder on my goal of being the very best I can be with Toulon Rugby Club and continue to embrace and enjoy ….