You do not write a novel for praise, or thinking of your audience. You write for yourself; you work out between you and your pen the things that intrigue you
I have all the characteristics of a human being: blood, flesh, skin, hair; but not a single, clear, identifiable emotion, except for greed and disgust. Something horrible is happening inside of me and I don't know why. My nightly bloodlust has overflown into my days. I feel lethal, on the verge of frenzy. I think my mask of sanity is about to slip.
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What this quote means
The quote expresses a profound inner conflict between human physicality and a lack of emotional connection, highlighting turmoil and psychological instability.
In this quote, the speaker reveals a deep existential crisis where the outward characteristics of being human exist, yet there is an absence of meaningful emotions, reflecting inner turmoil dominated by greed and disgust. The mention of a 'mask of sanity' suggests a struggle to maintain a façade of normalcy while battling intense and chaotic feelings that threaten to overwhelm the individual's identity and stability.
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Example use cases
In a discussion about psychological thrillers, one could quote this to illustrate the complexity of human emotions.
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