I can never drive my car over a bridge without thinking of suicide. I can never look at a lake or an ocean without thinking of suicide.
I sit here drunk now. I am a series of small victories and large defeats and I am as amazed as any other that I have gotten from there to here without committing murder or being murdered; without having ended up in the madhouse. as I drink alone again tonight my soul despite all the past agony thanks all the gods who were not there for me then.
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What this quote means
This quote reflects on the struggles and triumphs of life, highlighting resilience in the face of adversity.
Charles Bukowski's quote paints a vivid portrait of a tumultuous life filled with both small victories and significant defeats. The speaker expresses a sense of amazement at their survival amidst chaos, acknowledging the pain and struggles faced along the way while simultaneously showing gratitude for the unseen forces that have allowed them to endure. It illustrates the complexity of existence, where moments of despair are intertwined with a sense of accomplishment, leading to a profound appreciation for life despite its challenges.
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This quote can be shared during a motivational talk to inspire those facing challenges.
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