I'm always wondering if he'll return. Sometimes I pray that he doesn't. And sometimes I hope he will. I wish on falling stars and eyelashes. Absence isn't solid the way death is. It's fluid, like language. And it hurts so much...so, so much.
Interpretation
The quote reflects the complex emotions of longing, hope, and pain associated with absence in relationships.
In this quote, Woodson captures the turbulent emotions surrounding the absence of a loved one. It expresses the contradictory feelings of yearning for someone's return while also fearing the potential disappointment that may come with it. The metaphor of absence as something fluid rather than fixed suggests that it is a constantly shifting state filled with uncertainty and emotional turmoil. The imagery of wishing on stars and eyelashes conveys a sense of innocence and vulnerability in the experience of love and loss, where hope intertwines with the pain of longing.
In practice
Using the quote in a discussion about the emotional complexities of relationships during a therapy session.
'Brown Girl Dreaming' was a book I had a lot of doubts about - mainly, would this story be meaningful to anyone besides me? My editor, Nancy Paulsen, kept assuring me, but there were moments when I was in a really sad place with the story for so many reasons. It wasn't an easy book to write - emotionally, physically, or creatively.
In the midst of observing the world and coming to consciousness, I was becoming a writer, and what I wanted to put on the page were the stories of people who looked like me.
Sometimes you do have to laugh to keep from crying. And sometimes the world feels all right and good and kind of like it's becoming nice again around you. And you realize it, and realize how happy you are in it, and you just gotta laugh.
I don't want anyone to walk through the world feeling invisible ever again.
The strength of my mother is something I didn't pay attention to for so long. Here she was, this single mom, who was part of the Great Migration, who was part of a Jim Crow south, who said, 'I'm getting my kids out of here. I'm creating opportunities for these young people by any means necessary.'
I would have written 'Brown Girl Dreaming' if no one had ever wanted to buy it, if it went nowhere but inside a desk drawer that my own children pulled out one day to find a tool for survival, a symbol of how strong we are and how much we've come through.
I've had no contact with my daughter for years. That's her choice. Anyway, you move on. If people don't want to bother with me, fine. You know, God bless them, and move on.
It PASSED! Marriage equality in NY!! Yes!! Progress!! Thank you everyone who worked so hard on this!! A historic night!
Run a hand through your hair, like the white boys do, even though the only thing that runs easily through your hair is Africa.
Never say goodbye because goodbye means going away and going away means forgetting.
Craving, not having, is the mother of a reckless giving of oneself.
In the end, I think the relationships that survive in this world are the ones where two people can finish each other's sentences. Forget drama and torrid sex and the clash of opposites. Give me banter any day of the week.
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