I can never drive my car over a bridge without thinking of suicide. I can never look at a lake or an ocean without thinking of suicide.
It was like a church in there as only the truly lost sit in bars on Tuesday mornings at 8:00 a.m.
Interpretation
What this quote means
The quote depicts a scene of loneliness and the search for solace in a bar during an unconventional time.
In this quote, Charles Bukowski paints a vivid scene of a bar that resembles a church, where the 'truly lost' congregate. This metaphor suggests that individuals who find themselves in bars at such early hours are seeking refuge from their pains and struggles, much like worshippers seek comfort and meaning in a church. The setting underscores themes of solitude, desperation, and the search for connection in a world that can often feel isolating.
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In practice
Example use cases
During a discussion about coping mechanisms, one might bring up this quote to illustrate how people seek refuge in unlikely places.
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