I can never drive my car over a bridge without thinking of suicide. I can never look at a lake or an ocean without thinking of suicide.
Charles BukowskiRead
since some people had told me that I was ugly, I always preferred shade to the sun, darkness to light
Interpretation
The quote reflects a deep sense of insecurity and a preference for invisibility over exposure to judgment.
In this quote, Charles Bukowski expresses his feelings of unworthiness stemming from harsh criticism and societal standards of beauty. He metaphorically prefers the comfort of darkness, which offers anonymity and protection from the harsh light of scrutiny, illustrating how negative perceptions can shape one's self-image and choices in life.
In practice
In a discussion about self-esteem, I could quote Bukowski to illustrate how external opinions can affect one's self-perception.
I can never drive my car over a bridge without thinking of suicide. I can never look at a lake or an ocean without thinking of suicide.
when I am feeling low all i have to do is watch my cats and my courage returns
The masses are always wrong...Wisdom is doing everything the crowd does not do. All you do is reverse the totality of their learning and you have the heaven they're looking for.
I'm going to open another vottle. not a vottle, but a bottle. you open it and I'll drink it. and you try to write as much as I did without falling off of your chair.
To experience real agony is something hard to write about, impossible to understand while it grips you; you're frightened out of your wits, canβt sit still, move, or even go decently insane.
I lapsed into my pathetic cut-off period. Often with humans, both good and bad, my senses simply shut off, they get tired, I give up. I am polite. I nod. I pretend to understand because I donβt want anybody to be hurt. That is the one weakness that has lead me into the most trouble. Trying to be kind to others I often get my soul shredded into a kind of spiritual pasta. No matter. My brain shuts off. I listen. I respond. And they are too dumb to know that I am not there.
While a modicum of consciousness may have had survivalist properties during an immemorial chapter of our evolution β so one theory goes β this faculty soon enough became a seditious agent working against us β¦ we need to hamper our consciousness for all we are worth or it will impose upon us a too clear vision of what we do not want to see β¦ Consciousness has forced us into the paradoxical position of striving to be unself-conscious of what we are β hunks of spoiling flesh on disintegrating bones
There is no document of civilization which is not at the same time a document of barbarism.
A man does not always choose what his guardian angel intends.
Maybe a nation that consumes as much booze and dope as we do and has our kind of divorce statistics should pipe down about "character issues."
The true story is vicious and multiple and untrue after all. Why do you need it? Donβt ever ask for the true story.
The man of character, sensitive to the meaning of what he is doing, will know how to discover the ethical paths in the maze of possible behavior.
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