I can never drive my car over a bridge without thinking of suicide. I can never look at a lake or an ocean without thinking of suicide.
That was the trouble with being a writer, that was the main trouble—leisure time, excessive leisure time. You had to wait around for the buildup until you could write and while you were waiting you went crazy, and while you were going crazy you drank and the more you drank the crazier you got.
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What this quote means
The quote highlights the struggles of a writer dealing with the challenges of procrastination and the consequences of excessive leisure time.
In this quote, Charles Bukowski reflects on the peculiar challenges faced by writers, particularly the tension between the need for inspiration and the burdens of idleness. He suggests that while the waiting period for inspiration can cause madness and lead to self-destructive behaviors like drinking, it is a common plight for many creative individuals, thus encapsulating the often tumultuous relationship between creativity and mental health.
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Example use cases
In a discussion about the challenges faced by artists, this quote can be introduced to highlight the darker side of creativity.
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To experience real agony is something hard to write about, impossible to understand while it grips you; you're frightened out of your wits, can’t sit still, move, or even go decently insane.
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