They give me a shot and a handful of pills to swallow. I stare at the thin red wall of my inner eyelid and listen to my skin and I can't be sure how ….
This morning I suddenly catch myself: I'm not there, I'm so lost in thought, I don't know what's going on around me. Can you think yourself to death?.
Torture presupposes, it requires, it craves the abrogation of our capacity to imagine others suffering, dehumanizing them so much that their pain is ….
I felt deeply tricked. Stunned. And furious. I also felt my default emotion: numbness..
How nice -- to feel nothing, and still get full credit for being alive..
I was as hollow and empty as the spaces between stars..
The body shuts down when it has too much to bear; goes its own way quietly inside, waiting for a better time, leaving you numb and half alive..
I turned away from him and went on my way, up the street and about my business. The past was dead. The future was resignation, fatality, and could on….
It's important to cultivate detachment. One way to do this is to practice imagining yourself dead, or in the process of dying. If there's a window, y….
There's a numbness in our culture to the continuing horrors of genocide..
During the terrible years of the Yekhov terror I spent seventeen months in the prison queues in Leningrad. One day someone ‘identified’ me. Then a wo….
I'm up all night against my will My medicine won't let me feel anything at all The doctor gave me sleeping pills and I took one Then I feel all alone….
One must go through periods of numbness that are harder to bear than grief..
And though the coldness I have always felt leaves me, the numbness doesn't and probably never will. this relationship will probably lead to nothing..….
As long as I kept my body moving I could forget about the emptiness inside..
I want someone to pinch me so I can feel something, anything. I'm sick of this numbness, of feeling so alone and outside of everything, but I know it….
There is a feeling of disbelief that comes over you, that takes over, and you kind of go through the motions. You do what you're supposed to do, but ….
We don't exist unless there is someone who can see us existing, what we say has no meaning until someone can understand, while to be surrounded by fr….
I almost said, you're not broken, you're just going through something. But i couldn't. She knew. There was something terribly wrong with her, all the….
Grief, as I read somewhere once, is a lazy Susan. One day it is heavy and underwater, and the next day it spins and stops at loud and rageful, and th….
You've faced horrors in these past weeks... I don't know which is worse. The terror you feel the first time you witness such things, or the numbness ….